Yep, this time next week I will be having the operation.
Feeling excited and nervous and just a tiny bit odd that I’m so close to what I have been pressing for over the last couple of years. This has been a long time coming. As I make preparations for next week I have been thinking about the long road it has been to get here, the battles with doctors, the endless blood tests and hours spent hanging around in hospitals, tears of frustration shed after yet another doctor dismissed me, finding that dead patient in the next hospital bed in the middle of the night, the wasted days of being simply not well enough to do anything…
My friend came over last night and we were laughing about all the daft and annoying things that have happened – got to laugh in the end haven’t you? What isn’t funny though is that my kids were 7 and 9 when this all started and now they are the grand age of 10 and 12, there is a lot of growing up in those years and they had to do it with their single mum struggling to have the energy to keep on top of things. People tell me I didn’t deserve to have to wait this long for treatment but I’m old enough and ugly enough to cope – my boys didn’t deserve to not have the best of me for so long and at such an important time of their lives.
For a while there has been plans for ‘When Mum Is Better’ from all three of us, ‘When Mum Is Better’ we can go for days out again or lark around in the park, ‘When Mum Is Better’ they can have their bedroom redecorated (pirates are WAY too young now!) ‘When Mum Is Better’ she can drive again and not run out of energy within an hour, ‘When Mum is Better’ we can go away on a great big holiday!!!
Ah, almost there I keep telling them, almost there.
Almost there…… The things you must have planned!!
Your boys sound wonderful and very grown up to keep understanding that mum is ill at the moment but will be better soon. I hope they give you time to recover though before they start dragging you off to Alton Towers and insisting on going on all the very scarey rides.
I keep planning on how active I will be once this is all over. I went for my second mibi scan today, I have the Drs tomorrow and hopefully an appointment to see my consultant in a few weeks time! Yeah right.
Just chilling at home as it didn’t seem worth going into work for 1.5hrs and something has just struck me. I think all the guests on the Jeremy Kyle show are from the same gene pool. I don’t want to sound snobby but sometimes, some of the guests make me feel quite intelligent and normal!
This week, if it was me, I would do my favourite things, see close friends, drink good wine and toast farewell to your hellish parathyroid gland. I’ll raise a glass to you this weekend.
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Huge hugs and stop worrying about whats gone, next week will (god willing ) be the start of a fabulous new life for you and your lads xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.You can’t change the past but this will change the future xxxxxxxxx You how much I want this for you after all the Sh12My fondest love
KAB lolol I have to admit I think that too….JK Try the housewives of Orange County!! Do they know what real life is???
Hi Ann, I caught 2 minutes of it and couldn’t watch it any longer. Is it called orange county cos everyone is orange, like, Umpa Lumpa orange?
Foggyhead, I agree with Ann,the future looks bright (but hopefully not orange).
Hi Foggyhead,
How are you feeling? Probably nervous. Just thought I would drop you a quick note to let you know what the Dr said. Apparently, form the answers I gave on my questionaire, I have severe depression. However, he agreed that alot of my symptoms would be from the PHPT so hasn’t written it on my notes and hasn’t given me any medication. He will re-assess me after my surgery but I’m sure the questionaire next time will say I’m fine.
Anyway, if I don’t get chance to write on your blog again, I wish you lots of luck and can’t wait to read your first blog after your surgery.
Take care. xx
Hey KAB,
Sounds like you have a doctor who is really listening to you – that’s worth a great deal. Sorry you feel so bad at the moment, hope you have got the family understanding a bit better what is happening with you so they can offer you extra support at the moment. It’s tempting to struggle on with not wishing to worry others but right now you need people to understand you need extra TLC.
Thanks for your good wishes, I’ll blog again as soon as I can after to let everyone know how it went. KAB, hang in there and before you know it your turn will come around and I’ll be wishing you good luck…then we can compare our recovery notes
and enjoy us feeling normal again xx
Hey Foggy?
Wishing you the very best of luck. I’m sure he’ll get the little blighter(s).
How you feeling? Its finally gonna happen!
Let us know as soon as you’re able what the outcome was. xxx
Thanks Wendy! xxx
oops that was from Wendy! xx
Well Foggyhead – soon to be Clearheaded Claire – this is it!
I’m SO going to be thinking about you tomorrow – wishing all the very best.
I can’t believe this day has arrived. It seems you have been on the most intractable journey. There are many of us who have benefited from you sharing it with us & I, for one, want to thank you for that.
Please continue to share if & when you can – but mostly you deserve to focus on YOU. Take all the time you need to recuperate.
If there’s anything you want to ask me, you know I am here for you – but one thing I have learned is that everyone is different. You will have your own personal set of circumstances and your own individual responses.
After all you have been through, you’re bound to be feeling nervous and excited & frankly weird right now!
Go easy on yourself & look forward to welcoming some ‘normality’ back into your life. X
‘Clearheaded Claire’ – I like it, lol! Thanks Ashleigh xx